I Am A Servant

I've returned from a wonderful holiday with Garth Brooks.

What a one-man show! 

I spent the night with my friend, Debbie, then I hit the road for a 2-hour drive 

to my brother's house in Zion, Utah. 

Spending time with my 88-year-young Dad always inspires me.

He just returned from a river-rafting trip! 

One morning after brunch, I read him a few chapters from my upcoming novel and 

he laughed at the antics of the main character's father. 

I eventually told him, "Dad, that's you!" 

Then he really howled! 

"I never knew I was so funny." 

You're that, and much more, Dad.

Witty, sweet, brave, caring...the list goes on.

I've been blogging for a year now, 

all the while wondering where I'm going with it. 

People say, "you should focus on one topic and stick with it." 

That's hard this senior multi-tacker.

My mind goes off in different directions...

...family, friends, travel, writing, peeing. 

So I made a choice to continue my multi-tasking blog and 

write whatever God places in my heart at the moment. 

For tonight, this is what's in the old heart:

Do you have a certain song that sings your life? 

or a part of your life? 

As I was praying and meditating this afternoon, 

a song came across my mind that Jacquie and I recorded with the group Sonshine many years ago, 

I Am A Servant by Larry Norman. 

Sound a little hippie? 

Probably because this happened in the 70's. 

Although I sang the song years ago, 

the words became a reality to me several years later 

after going through a painful divorce, 

and making several selfish decisions which caused even more pain. I felt unworthy to serve God again, 

but His love reached out to me, 

I got back on track, 

and eventually He brought my wonderful husband into my life. Everything changed. It's a beautiful song, and the lyrics are prolific.

I am a servant, I've been listening for my name,

I sit here waiting, I've been looking at the game

that I've been playing, I've been staying much the same.

When you are lonely, you're the only one to blame.

I am a servant, I am waiting for the call,

I've been unfaithful, so I sit here in the hall.

How can you use me when when I've never given all?

How can you choose me when you know I'd quickly fall?

So you feed my soul, and you make me grow

and you let me know you love me.

I am worthless now, but I've made a vow,

I will humbly bow before thee.

I am a servant getting ready for my part,

There's been a change, a rearrangement in my heart.

At last I'm learning there's no returning once I start.

To live's a privilege, to love is such an art,

But I need your help to start,

Oh, please purify my heart...

I am Your servant

I wish you oceans of blessings,

Sharon Leaf, the almost-famous author 

www.sharonleaf.com